odd girl out

i'm still trying to really understand the concept of the eternal return


but i feel like i've got my own conception. it pertains to the same old shit i end up feeling and have felt every since i can remember. this feeling occurs less and less at time goes by, but it aches just the same. i guess i'm beginning to realize i've chased my tail long enough to slow it down a bit.


ideals are just that.

just because

i still think there's nothing out there.....

actually nothing out HERE. and that's still a huge understatement.

the life of a 20sumthing person these days is a simple paradox. we wanna move on from stupid things we did when we were young-er, but it's impossible when we're connected to these people not just in the physical world, but the technological as well.

of course you can always unplug, block, delete, etc. but really? we just cannot help but still know what the other person is up to, so creepy. so masochistic.

i got way from my initial topic. i'm happy here but i still end up going back home at the end of the night flashing back to random shit and thinking "man, there really just isn't any thing out here" ........and somewhere else? i really hope so.


not MY birthday, but someone else. someone i don't necessary miss, but i'm just nostalgic like that.....and this song seemed relevant


a whole year after that exciting month and even though i know otherwise, i still feel like absolutely nothing has changed........i mean i suppose it really hasn't.