It was definitely like a dream come true. To have waited soo long for something. To slowly beginning to believe that what you hope for is unattainable, something unlikely, too rare. To think you have to abandon something you’ve always waited for. To see it as foolish. To want to separate yourself from everything; to change everything to disbelieve your dream, so it doesn’t kill you a little every time it doesn’t come true. To hold it like a secret. To feel ashamed when someone judges you for it. For others to say it doesn’t happen that way. To be kicked in the stomach one last time. And then to have it happen to you, just as you need it to. I have anticipated it all my life. And right when I felt like I was breaking down, my dream was within my reach.
Yes, sometime ideals hold us back, but if it’s something like the thing I’m talking about, then I’m very happy I held onto mine just long enough to see it reached.
I wonder if most things happen that way? I won’t worry too much. I’m happy now.
They say good things come to those who wait, and I have been lucky enough to see that be true.
Everything in its right place, even if just for a little while.
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