it almost seems totally ridiculous that i was so emotionally hurt a few weeks ago. in the back of my head i knew all the most logical components of the situation. i knew that 'time makes it fine' , i knew that when it was over it........well...it would be over. hah.
and i was right.
but it's funny how we know that everything will be alright while we are making big deals out of things.
but our emotions take front seat when things are in action.
you can't just stop being sad until something is resolved in such a way. i could still be in a funk. but thank god, i was given the opportunity for at least some kind of closure. something to soften the blow.
didn't come out the way i exactly wanted. but it IS for the best.
it just sucks i spent a damn month having a hard time. i guess it was one of the first times in a long time. i'm usually pretty damn happy to say the least. but things happen. it's just life.
on a different note, i did my "big chop" on Saturday, July 17th. it wasn't super epic or anything haha. and i didn't cry.
i was a little nervous going in, but i knew that feeling that way for something i was choosing to do was unnecessary.
it turned out well. she didn't cut it SUPER short.....like shave me bald or anything.
and its funny.....EVERYONE LOVED IT. i'm still getting tons of comments from my co-workers and my customers. and it's really nice.
i feel a lot more confident. and i feel like it's the start of something new.
i'm really excited about turning 21 and it helps if i don't feel like crap in the meantime. my 18th was like a celebration of awesome things leading up to it. and i want this one to be the same.
i want to be positive.
well...i don't feel like writing anymore......even though i never got to a real point. wow.
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