no time this time.

i've always had a kinda weird thing about growing up. it's inevitable and natural....but so fast......

it always sneaks up on you. really, i'm only twenty, so i obviously don't have a life's worth of experience, but this stuff still freaks me out.

i hate the 24 hours a day we all get. it's not everyday, but i just hate that feeling that the day is gone and i haven't done anything.
i feel like time is moving soo fast and i won't be able to acomplish the neverending list of things i want to do before i die.

it's strange moving through time....
there are things that seem like they will last forever, and if they stop, you're left standing around.....all surpised and whatnot. :)

and just the same, things happen that you'd never expect, or that you wouldn't expect to happen so soon.


aside from time...
what do you do when you're faced with a situation you've always said you'd avoid, and it would be just that simple to avoid...........yet, it happens anyway........so basically you try to manage it. and that makes you a hypocrit........
vague. what's new?
i've got a little bit of that happening. i'm all about the ideal. but the ideal takes to long to wait for, and i want to accomplish certain things in my youth rather than wait....so should i just take a dive? or wait it out for a ideal that may never even happen? damn.