fall off the table, get swept under........

it sucks when you want something.
even worse is.... when you're waiting to get it.

you wonder what'll be like when you get it.
if you'll still like it.
if it'd be like you thought.




or if you'll get it at all.

then you start to think how sweet it'd be not to want it to begin with. then it wouldn't even matter.


i guess it's obvious i'm not just talking material objects. i'm talking about people too.

feeling suck sometimes..... well just the bad ones.
when you re euphoric and happy,everything is right and well... but when you want something, and you've been let down so much, you don't even know if you could begin to handle it if you got it.

all you want is to never have wanted it to begin with, then you wouldn't have to deal with adverse effects.


but usually it's all worth it, b/c life teaches lessons.




my point.....? i guess i always contradict myself.