rambling......too much coffee

i think the blend of coffee i made this morning has made me more hyped than i have been for awhile.

and it sucks b/c I'm at school right now so i cannot dance around like i want to.


I'm so excited a/b today. its Friday and after Spanish class i get to go to work at the fort. :D
i just love working there, as opposed to working at rite-aid. :(
its just so nice having an understanding boss, and co-workers that are actually your friends.

sometimes life just overwhelms me.
i get down sometimes, but am so thankful for the fact that i always have things and people that can cheer me up.

things can get so stressful and upsetting sometimes, but i am thankful for my health, mind, friends, and ......i guess family even thought i wish i could trade them most times.

i love life, and i forget that every now and then.
i watch ppl, (not in a creepy stalker way, just in an observant normal way) and sometimes it seems that life isn't for everyone.
'wtf does that mean?', you ask.
well i know and see people that never really know what their living for. some ppl just don't care a/b anything at all.

it is strange to me, that there are people that do not have any beliefs or ideas. you ask them a/b something and they can never converse with you on it b/c they are preoccupied with things that do not matter, or aren't occupied at all.


there's a billion things that a person can live for. and it is odd that some people are content with routine lives and no purpose at all.
i don't know what my life will be in the future, but i know what i am living for today.
i have a general idea of what my life has amounted to so far.



so many things have made me smile today, sometimes i forget to smile.

sometimes you hear something different in a song you have heard hundreds of times.
sometimes the crazy things people say in political science a/b the death penalty dont make any sense at all. and sometimes you get out of politcal science class early.
sometimes your mom oversleeps and you have to make your own breakfast.
sometimes the weather is perfect. too perfect.
sometimes being alone actually feels so good.
and sometimes you just dont know why youre soo happy

these are things today that have made me smile.

today i have smiled a million times.